Of Cats and Colors

Each day is a fresh start so before I hit the bed, I made the most out of today. Thank You, Dear Jesus for the gift of art and colors. I wish to have colorful dreams tonight. 💚💛💜💙

Love ?

Dear Doctor,

I badly need you and your Tardis. Please take me to another parallel universe where I could at least meet him. This dimension I’m in is and have been playing tricks on me for quite some time now. :( 

Please take me to Mom’s place too. She was calling my name in my dreams this morning. I am sure she knows I’m in deep pain.😦

I don’t know what to feel now. I’m free-falling in between defying logic and following my instincts. 

Have you ever been in love, Doctor? Have you ever been in this complicated business called love??? Why is it called love? Does it really exist? Who invented it? Where did it come from? Did aliens know what it is? 

Somewhere in the multiverses you’ve been to, were you able to visit a certain world of love? If not, can you take me with you? 

News Flash: I miss you. Read again. 

Irreplaceable 

Suddenly here I am crying my heart out while trying to sleep. My poor heart yearns for Mom again. Longing for someone who will never be present anymore is the most painful realization there is. Mourning over the loss of a dearly loved one is such a difficult process. Accepting the reality to begin with is the hardest part. One day you’re happy, the other day you’re sad. How do you really move on and get away from it? 😢

Thank You, Mom


“She made broken look beautiful and strong look invincible. She walked with the Universe on her shoulders and made it look like a pair of wings.”

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom. 👸🏻💕👼

Stay with me, Patience

I am pissed as f*ck! Soon enough my boiling point might burst out of control. You keep telling us that everything’s in place so we waited. We patiently waited. But you treated our patience at sub-par as if it was left unheard. Our will and devotion to the job is 100% but it seem to be of little importance to you.😦

I don’t want to continue on. I know how far this anger could go. Telling other people about my frustration could also add burden to them so I resort to just let the boiling flow here. Though my positive light is beginning to dim again. I should stop now and take a deep breath. Calm down, self. Calm down. I will try my best to keep this anger in its porous level. Then the little good things would soon come out of the teeny tiny holes in my body.

Having to endure this patience is half the challenge won, right? So stay with me even more.

Whatever is begun in anger ends in shame. ~ Benjamin Franklin

 

Feelings of Being

To the one who’s reading this from Tx,

Hello from the other side🙂
I know you’re just there, checking on me, always listening to my feelings, reading me like an open book
I’m still coping, but don’t bother, I’m a mess these days. You know me well. 😄
Jesus will take the wheels, right?🙂

So how have you been? Please always take care of yourself
I know you struggle with your health and problems too
Hey you’re one of the toughest out there
You may not agree with me tough man but sure you are!

Don’t worry about me anyway
I assure you I will be okay in time
Like what you’ve said, grieving would take years, if not, a lifetime for some
It would take time.

I miss you though
So much
So much that once again you made me jot this down
It’s 0021 hours already and this blog is alive and loud

So tell me
Am I making sense here?
As if you would answer me 😄
Good night then.
I wish you well.

Until my next piece.

Queen of Hearts

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Queen Vivian

No wonder you won the ‘Queen of Hearts’ pageant for mommies back in the days. You had so much fun. You were so proud as you walk and own the stage wearing the crown that you worked hard for. But the truth is, there’s no need to compete with all the mommies out there because you already won our hearts. And it will take forever to decrown you.🙂

You will always be my Queen, Mom. Your family and I miss you so much though.  :'(:'(:'(

I love you from heaven and back. 💖💙💗

Mourning Lane

It’s been thirty-six days already since you’ve been gone
It’s hard to imagine that you’re gone forever, Mom

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I know you’re up there sleeping with the stars😦
I miss you terribly can I hug you from afar?😦
Nothing could warm this heart drowning in sorrow
Like a mother does in wiping tears of her daughter😥

Someday…

somedayitsgonnamakesense

All seems fine with me but then again…

Still I feel weak and tired and I am not sure how I will get through a particularly depressing time. It can feel a struggle but it is with all His energy which so powerfully works in me.