A person you love is an extension of yourself. Without it you’re not complete so better take care of yourself because I don’t want to lose a part of me. 💜😊
Missing her comes in sunflowers, always reminding me of her sunny attitude and golden heart.
Forever missing you, Mom. I know you’d rather tell me to hush now and smile instead ’cause I got these sunflowers for free. 😀 (Oh, special thanks to UP Diliman’s garden along University Avenue for these lovely blooms). We had fun flower-picking! How I wish heaven had visiting hours, no? We’ll have tall stories to tell that’s for sure. ^_^
Anyway, when it comes to Mom, God knows that my tongue and brain sometimes lack the words to say and express how much I miss her. It’s really hard to put these mixed feelings into words. And so I’ll just leave this as it is.
If you are reading this, then I still exist in your universe I hope? I am out of lines honestly. I can’t believe it. I shut down and reopened this laptop several times already, deleting and retyping words I couldn’t assemble in one perfect thought.
I feel like I’m playing a tennis game at match point, but got broken again at winning serve that I could’ve aced. There is an ominous curtain blocking my night sky. I couldn’t find myself these days.
Two, five, seven hours passed by and yet there is no coherence in this piece. Deleting, retyping, and so it goes. Help me, Doctor. Bring me your Tardis please for this damned silly lady. Take me back to two days ago where I double faulted. 😦
Eleven twenty-seven in the evening. Heart be still. TQM.
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I badly need you and your Tardis. Please take me to another parallel universe where I could at least meet him. This dimension I’m in is and have been playing tricks on me for quite some time now. 😦
Please take me to Mom’s place too. She was calling my name in my dreams this morning. I am sure she knows I’m in deep pain. 😦
I don’t know what to feel now. I’m free-falling in between defying logic and following my instincts.
Have you ever been in love, Doctor? Have you ever been in this complicated business called love??? Why is it called love? Does it really exist? Who invented it? Where did it come from? Did aliens know what it is?
Somewhere in the multiverses you’ve been to, were you able to visit a certain world of love? If not, can you take me with you?
Suddenly here I am crying my heart out while trying to sleep. My poor heart yearns for Mom again. Longing for someone who will never be present anymore is the most painful realization there is. Mourning over the loss of a dearly loved one is such a difficult process. Accepting the reality to begin with is the hardest part. One day you’re happy, the other day you’re sad. How do you really move on and get away from it? 😢
I am pissed as f*ck! Soon enough my boiling point might burst out of control. You keep telling us that everything’s in place so we waited. We patiently waited. But you treated our patience at sub-par as if it was left unheard. Our will and devotion to the job is 100% but it seem to be of little importance to you. 😦
I don’t want to continue on. I know how far this anger could go. Telling other people about my frustration could also add burden to them so I resort to just let the boiling flow here. Though my positive light is beginning to dim again. I should stop now and take a deep breath. Calm down, self. Calm down. I will try my best to keep this anger in its porous level. Then the little good things would soon come out of the teeny tiny holes in my body.
Having to endure this patience is half the challenge won, right? So stay with me even more.
Whatever is begun in anger ends in shame. ~ Benjamin Franklin
No wonder you won the ‘Queen of Hearts’ pageant for mommies back in the days. You had so much fun. You were so proud as you walk and own the stage wearing the crown that you worked hard for. But the truth is, there’s no need to compete with all the mommies out there because you already won our hearts. And it will take forever to decrown you. 🙂
You will always be my Queen, Mom. Your family and I miss you so much though. :'(:'(:'(
I love you from heaven and back. 💖💙💗
It’s been thirty-six days already since you’ve been gone
It’s hard to imagine that you’re gone forever, Mom
I know you’re up there sleeping with the stars 😦
I miss you terribly can I hug you from afar? 😦
Nothing could warm this heart drowning in sorrow
Like a mother does in wiping tears of her daughter 😥
All seems fine with me but then again…
Still I feel weak and tired and I am not sure how I will get through a particularly depressing time. It can feel a struggle but it is with all His energy which so powerfully works in me.
Don’t you dare close your beautiful eyes yet. Please. 😥