Hello from the other side 🙂
I know you’re just there, checking on me, always listening to my feelings, reading me like an open book
I’m still coping, but don’t bother, I’m a mess these days. You know me well. 😄
Jesus will take the wheels, right? 🙂
So how have you been? Please always take care of yourself
I know you struggle with your health and problems too
Hey you’re one of the toughest out there
You may not agree with me tough man but sure you are!
Don’t worry about me anyway
I assure you I will be okay in time
Like what you’ve said, grieving would take years, if not, a lifetime for some
It would take time.
I miss you though
So much that once again you made me jot this down
It’s 0021 hours already and this blog is alive and loud
So tell me
Am I making sense here?
As if you would answer me 😄
Good night then.
I wish you well.
My New Year started with an emotional bang when my precious cat, Mac-Mac, died on the very first day. He was 9 years old.
I was completely heartbroken words just can’t describe it. To be honest, I still feel guilty for not being there for him when he started getting ill (again). I know how stressful it was for his immediate family (I can’t thank my friend Analyn enough for taking care of him) to attend to his illness because I saw the pictures of him trying to get up and wanting to walk out of the clinic already. He looked very curious…very curious why I was not around. It was heartbreaking. 😥
A part of me also died when I heard the news. What a news to welcome the new year. 😦 I hated myself that I wasn’t holding him when he died. It was the worst feeling not a damn thing can assuage the guilt and sadness inside me. I should’ve blogged about this last month, right?
No. Because I still couldn’t collect myself. I am so sorry my Mac-Mac. I love you so much. I can’t go on and type the words anymore. The fact that I was not with you is never going to change. 😦
Thank you for the beautiful friendship, Mac. I know in this way I can give the love I failed to give during my MIA days when you needed me most. I hope this writing will heal my heart and I know you can hear me from the other side. Whew. I feel better now because of another realization. My emotions were selfish though. I should be thankful you died in the hands of my loving friends and for laying you down in a nice, warm environment and not in the clinic or in the streets of Kamias ’cause that’s not going to happen either.
Again, thank you Boss Mac for the wonderful 6 years. I will find comfort in remembering those memories with you. Always. 🙂
Thank you for the friendship. Thank you for the memories and belated Happy Birthday, my dear amigo. Akala mo nakalimutan na kita, hindi no! Ikaw pa Dan, malakas ka sa akin. Napanaginipan kita last week, sorry na. Promise babawi kami nina Karen sa’yo. 😥
Hindi mo alam na kahit sa maikling panahon na pinagsamahan natin, isa ka rin palang mababaw ang kaligayahan katulad ko hahaha! Seryoso miss na miss na kita, dude. Salamat talaga, Dan. Salamat sa pag-aruga mo kay Mac-Mac, sa kalokohan sa office, sa on-time payroll hahaha, at higit sa lahat sa pag-alaga mo sa amin kahit may karamdaman ka. Sigurado ako okay ka na kasama Niya. Salamat sa lahat. Kitakits. :’)
“The greatest tribute to the dead is not grief but gratitude.” ~ Thornton Wilder 🙂