The President We Deserve

LET LENI LEAD 2022-BETTER YEARS!

Pinoy Penman 3.0

I GREW up a Marcos believer.

He was the guest of honor at my grade school graduation in 1966. Newly elected, he looked every inch the hero he said he was—handsome, dashing, gifted with a golden tongue. Watching him I thought that a President was a great man, greater than all of us.

Just seven years later, I spent most of my 19th year in martial-law prison. I was there because the President I admired as a child had lied to me.He said he wanted to make the Philippines great again. Instead he acquired more power and more wealth, for which he stole from both the rich and poor, and punished those who opposed him.

That included young students like me. They called us “radicals” and put many of us in prison, and many of my friends suffered horrible deaths. Sadly, many more Filipinos didn’t care. Happy to see new…

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begin again

begin again

they care a lot

Aaaand we are back in the game. No, actually we are still in the game. And we keep losing. 😦

Again, Metro Manila and its nearby provinces will implement yet again, the traumatizing Enhanced Community Quarantine (ECQ) effective today, March 29 until April 4, 2021. There’s a great chance that it will get extended I’m pretty 99.99% sure. I don’t know anymore if this ECQ would help. It is, to be honest, not going to help many Filipinos but only those that still believe and blind-supporting the President’s take on this “maliit na bagay” problem. It took him a year to finally realise that we are STILL UNPREPARED for this shit.

Okay back to the ECQ. Yes it might help lessen the heavy burden of our healthcare workers but overall, it will probably continue to ruin our lives, our normal selves, our routine, our goals and dreams, our inner peace. It sucks being here in Manila. The government is supposed to have purchased the COVID-19 vaccines and by this time at least half of our HCWs/Essential Workers have already been vaccinated. But only in our dreams.

It is so hard to stay positive with this incompetent government in this very unpredictable times. People are dying not only from the virus but of hunger, joblessness, hopelessness, suicide, and of course the lack of government’s supposedly continuous support in terms of provision of food on their plates, better healthcare, and psychosocial help. We are also in dire need of the government’s empathy. We need HELP!

Sadly though, we stumble our way back into quarantining ourselves like it’s 2020. A f*cking quarantine, bubble or whatsoever that would take over all of our lives once again. They spent billions on this useless f*cking dolomite in Manila Bay, spent millions on literally silencing innocent people after red-tagging them, spent millions on hiring incompetent officials who are supposed to do “serve and protect the nation”, not “serve and protect the few”, spent millions on “Oplan Tokhang” that killed thousands of drug addicts, but spared the drug lords, and the list goes on. That’s his pandemic road-map, folks. It is basically “KKK” or Kill, Kill, Kill.

Because they f*cking care a lot.

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It’s better to have nobody than to have someone who is half there, or doesn’t want to be there. ~ Angelina Jolie

Live in a world…

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I wanna live in a world where people don’t get hurt, and everybody’s got enough money, where nobody ever gets sick or has to skip a meal. I wanna live in a world where Santa’s real. 🙃

it is time

learn to forgive

but first yourself

i forgive you, self

i forgive you

Say Something

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‘cause love is love, it never ends

can we all be as one again?

birthday notes to self

hello, wordpress
back here
stuck at home
of course, sars-cov2
you lil piece of virus
still beating around the bush

it’s past one o’clock of a new day
i only hear stray dogs barking
like they’re talking to each other
maybe checking on their catch from the dumpster

some stray cats too
they’re out and about
scavenging on sidewalk garbages

just finished chatting with a special friend
he sang to me different versions of it
spanish, korean, english, tagalog
i love it, sweet, simple things to cherish

checked on each other
how our days went
time’s up
good night from this side of the world
his day has just started
technically a night morning here
six minutes before 2am

said my good night and thank yous
but could’nt actually sleep
i want to resume my Coursera online study
but dang it my focus is not there

mosquitoes are pestering me
they’re just mosquitoes i tell myself
but they’re sucking up my mood
lessening my endurance to study

oh well
just refreshed my mind for a minute
today is my birthday
i have mixed emotions
what good am i at this stage of life?

maybe this life-changing statement would help
“you don’t have to feel hopeful about the future,
it’s enough to just be curious about what is coming”

it’s a tough one to start with right?
especially in this time of pandemic
what has this pandemic ruined for us?
hella lot

it decimated not just my country
but the entire world
we don’t know how long we could hang on
another 2, 3, or 6 more months?

to date, been almost two months of quarantine life here
what’s Your hidden message behind all this, Father?
it’s like You withdrew from everyone and everything
meet me in one of my solitudes please

only You have the answers
only You have the power to end this
only You have the right to turn this around

patience and faith, more of it
double, even triple of it
He’ll give every thing back
a million times better than before

stay hopeful, stay curious
curious optimism ok?

i will patiently wait
we all should
something out there will surprise us
so let’s stay patient, stay safe
once again, stay willingly patient

i’m 35 and single
no one asked, i know lol
don’t worry about my relationship status
i’m awake and totally fine
being in a relationship is not a privilege, ok people?

i just know what i want
ciao, be kind, and blessings y’all!

happy birthday to me ^^

featured image: Paolo Bendandi on Unsplash

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