Love ?

Dear Doctor,

I badly need you and your Tardis. Please take me to another parallel universe where I could at least meet him. This dimension I’m in is and have been playing tricks on me for quite some time now. 😦 

Please take me to Mom’s place too. She was calling my name in my dreams this morning. I am sure she knows I’m in deep pain. 😦

I don’t know what to feel now. I’m free-falling in between defying logic and following my instincts. 

Have you ever been in love, Doctor? Have you ever been in this complicated business called love??? Why is it called love? Does it really exist? Who invented it? Where did it come from? Did aliens know what it is? 

Somewhere in the multiverses you’ve been to, were you able to visit a certain world of love? If not, can you take me with you? 


A Movie Reflection: The Best of Me

This movie brought me to tears. I haven’t had a ‘real’ relationship like this one but I can easily relate to it. I’m sure my friends would definitely laugh at me if they see me bawling over this movie. Well, they don’t know much about me. I admit I’m not very vocal about my love-life because there’s not much to talk about lol. There’s only one guy who knows me. 🙂

The guy in the movie lived his whole life loving her until the end. Yes, until the end. No pun intended. This indeed is the movie for hopeless romantics like me. 😀 Who wouldn’t want a guy like that?? I know guys like them are very rare nowadays. Yes, it’s freaking 2015 already, so maybe a guy like Dawson (James Marsden, main character) exists not in this lifetime but in another lifetime, in a parallel universe I may guess.

Anyway, I have to say I can associate myself with the guy for being true to his word — for being deeply and madly in love with Amanda (Michelle Monaghan, main character), sounds too good to be true though, because he truly knows his purpose — to love her no matter what. Some might not love their story because it’s not a happy ending. Ooops, sorry to spoil you my dear few readers! Okay to continue, we have to agree with Nicholas Sparks sometimes and accept the reality. I find the story very realistic unlike his other romantic novels with predictable endings. I can very much reflect about it that everything in life is uncertain. We don’t know what may happen in the future, how our lives would be like with children around. People change through time. I refrained from watching the full movie though because I felt a pang in my heart when I noticed there’s something with this movie that hurts me. Maybe because of the fact that I can only love ‘him’ but I have to accept that he’s not mine to keep. There’s no way he’s going to be mine. The same goes with Dawson in this movie. 😦

So, I wonder…how’s he doing now. I sincerely hope he’s fine and better. I can only wonder.

I guess I will forever be a loner. A few of my closest friends know about our story. I once mentioned here that everything in life is uncertain. Well, except for our story because it will forever be written somewhere vast and certain. Just look up there every night. There ‘you’ will see it’s written in the stars. 🙂

I’m glad I had a star-crossed relationship with ‘you’. I will forever be thankful to God I met you in the middle of it all. 🙂

I’ve loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night. ~ GaliLeo

About a Bear

spain osocreo que me he enamorado de un oso

i said the words a whisper

i want the world to know though

oh but he is just a bear

i was never good at poems

and I was never good at love

i’m surprised I’m jotting one down

i’m stoked my world’s spinning ‘round

about a bear I used to know

who cares for my long lost heart

who understands my highs and lows

who knows how to treat me right

i have a pretty name but I’m not so who cares

my name is Jessica and I’m in love with a bear


Cloudy with a Chance of Love

I keep asking myself if he is the guy. If he is the right guy. And if he is the one. And if he is the man I will truly love. Will I?

Here’s the hard truth. I really don’t know. The inner Eve of me won’t even talk if I’m doing it right or if I’m just into believing that our love story on Skype is kismet. As ‘A’ (let’s just keep him by that name) would always say, “you’re always a scaredy cat.” Yes, I’ve always wanted to get a tattoo but here I am showing him pictures of tattoos I want. Just pictures ’cause I’m scared. But then again, I still want it. One day I will. Yeah right, Jess.

Omit the rest of the love story. There are too many to tell. 😀

Oh, then suddenly he wants to marry me. Holy Mother of Jesus. Is this guy serious??

“I’m going to fall in love with him. I’m going to be head over heels and my stomach is going to hurt every time he (walks into a room*) asks me to marry him goes online. I’m going to worry about him whenever he isn’t there, and there are going to be times where I’ll hate him. Because that’s what love is. It’s a kaleidoscope of emotions, all sorts of different colors blending together into one.” ~ C. M. Stunich / Losing Me, Finding You

Many were told that fate makes fun of us, that it gives us nothing but promises everything. When happiness seems to be within our reach, we reach out and find ourselves like fools. So…going back to A, he’s been deliberately upbeat with the marriage thing. Well after all, I’m still twenty-eight, free and single — for the moment. But will I ever have the courage to see him when the time comes?

Sometimes, you just can’t tell how you really feel.


Quantum Love

Quantum physics now pronounces A & J

The universe conspired that the photons and electrons interact

Such that one particle will affect the other

They will remain entangled.

In the case of A & J, Albert Einstein called it ‘Quantum Relationship’ or “spooky action at a distance.”

Time and space are immaterial. 🙂Image


Let Her Go

Let Her Go – Passenger (Boyce Avenue feat. Hannah Trigwell acoustic cover)

I could listen to this song and all of Passenger’s album all day. Thank you for sharing your music, Mike Rosenberg. 🙂

Holy Sweet Week

Being ONE with our closest family friends again in more than a decade is the sweetest blessing on an Easter week. God is indeed the DJ and life is a dance floor. 🙂Image

Huzzah! 😀 Hear us celebrate life in this bubbly picture, all smiles, thankful and appreciative of God’s grace and blessings. Glory to God in the highest! ^____^